...all i want is you.

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-- Sunday, April 23, 2006 --

hello.
i have so many things to say. i really don't think i know how to say them though. i'll just try anyways. maybe i'll hit something. things used to work that way before anyways...

monday had been bad. i don't know what happened, but i really feel like things aren't the same anymore. what is it that's changed? could it be that i had finally awaken? is this more real than anything else?

maybe it's just all that easier to feel this way about things cause he isn't around to respond to things. despite the vagueness of that sentence, it makes sense. to a degree... but i think there's more to it than that.

i'm just scared. or still hurt. i don't know. i'm the kind of person who doesnt hurt easily... but that... that was just a boulder or anvil dropped at my face, i felt like i was slapped in the face. that was as much of a 'let's get real sugar' hook as the words 'get real.' are said to my face. why am i still holding on to it? is it because i'm just obssessing over nothing? what if it wasnt nothing? it's just the fear. it's so overwhelming. i really dont want soemthing like that to ever happen again.

suddenly i want to end up an old maid. it just hurt so much... so small. so miniscule... hurt that much. just....

i don't know what else to say!

mused dettie at 7:56 PM [+]
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