...all i want is you.

-- Saturday, November 30, 2002 --

another temporary version. interblued. now up. a present from nyawie. ^^ **hugs** aaah! i better get going with my own design but school work's in my way. damn! band links etc are still underway. im so sorry. i intend to have them done before next week. i just wish i'd get through with my school works! aaah! too many codes so little time! sorry to those people who are reading my day-to-day entries. as of now my brain's pretty cluttered with site/moving issues. not to mention school crap, but oh well. here's to hoping i'd pull through. im really sorry...

mused dettie at 7:42 PM [+]
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temporary.
this will be out before the next week ends. hopefully. **grin** dontcha love my new home? people should change links now.

aaron's in need of support. no worries, i'll pray for your mom. **smiles sadly** she'll be fine kid. no worries.

vanya: thankyou much again! **muah** i hafta go make mc bring her cam for the pics i'd use for the "official" band thing. btw; just so my friends wont think im high or sumthin' i decided i wont cuss so much [for now atleast. this is my first acctual post over at nameless, so, cut me some slack. i'd give more information later. uhm, i'd send emails, so, by then u know ive moved and you'll see here. much love!

mused dettie at 10:47 PM [+]
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lunch/night events at diary. btw; i made a fake consent form worth $25 for my cuzin toni. so she should be getting $25 soon from her mom due to the form.

mused dettie at 9:25 PM [+]
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...ashlee and ashley pissed me off yesterday. but i just found out it was all ashley. damn that bitch! she should fuckin' die. damn that preppy bitch! **grabs chopsticks of doom** im gonna frickin' poke her frickin' eyes out and stab her to death!! damn that fuckin' bitch!!!!
i did a 2rd page of stick people saga. mostly killing ashlee and ashley... so ya. no i'll cancel the ashlee murder... cause its all that fuckin' bitch's fault. aaaaah!!!!!! i want a host!!!!!

mused dettie at 11:07 AM [+]
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...went droppin' off resume's and things today. woo~ aylabyoo evvyone! diarylistic. charmy; tinest ko kanina gumagana. oo nga sabi mo nga pala nagana. >.>

mused dettie at 11:39 PM [+]
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motivation proclamation. nuff said. charmy knows what im worrying about... daym charmy... i dont think i'd ever tal;k to her again. >.< diary entry tomorrow.

mused dettie at 9:38 PM [+]
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tired. i posted at the diary! it's been a week! waaah!

mused dettie at 12:54 AM [+]
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damn.

mused dettie at 11:26 PM [+]
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...i'm, lost again.

mused dettie at 11:26 PM [+]
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people i love! abswelto na 'ko! but i bet i still wouldnt be blogging much considering, im too busy and all that shit.... but i really am missing you all! the board's down... and that'll be a week, or so. so, for messages, and violent reactions, kick me by the guestbook.
everyone go check out our new saykos layout! w00t~! it's so pretty, with stars, and its blue! make nyawie work on longer more elaborate profiles for the saykos-ers nyok nyok jk awie. and yupp; im sixteen. i'll be 17 by jan 28th.
btw; lumipat na naman si nyawie ba't ba 'di mapakali mga tao? sabagay, gusto ko na din lumipat...ok, pinalitan ko na yung link ng saykos, saka link ni nyawie.
charmy; i emailed you.
nyawie; bat di ko masign gb mo?
ate lek; aylabyoo na aymissyoo pa!
hanna; ayaw mag lad ng blog mo. bulok kasi pc na to eh...
matt; yo ty for mailing back and informing me that u r still alive. ^^
charisse; i dunno, maybe its the pc, but i cant open ur site.
trish; just wanna mention ur name. ^^

mused dettie at 2:36 PM [+]
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magppost ako mamaya pag uwi ko. oh shiet, may yrbook meeting pala ako!

mused dettie at 10:54 AM [+]
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...so sorry for the semi-dead blog people i love! im just not in the place to blog as much as i used to... but i hope things would be back to normal.

mused dettie at 7:08 PM [+]
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im grounded. no worries. im doing great! paul email's everyday... and that helps... and i get to see people's blogs... so its all good. btw, the link ate lek plugged was funny. lol i miss you guys!!!

mused dettie at 10:33 AM [+]
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it's all good. im on the gounge. pray for me.

mused dettie at 11:21 AM [+]
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8 mile... was ok. had lunch with my sister's friends. i felt so excluded. kids are kids. >.< miranda and jason are droppin' off resume's and things today.... too bad i wasnt able to go with them.... i'll have to finish all those things sooner or later. i seriously need some money. coffee addiction isnt good at all.

mused dettie at 9:21 PM [+]
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hey you,
i read message in a bottle. and i loved it. i wish i'd find someone like garrett. i wish i could find someone like him and someone who'd love me as much as he loved catherine. dont you dream of things like those too? he doesnt think love is over rated. he doesnt think romance is stupid. yes... i know. i could almost see that smile in your face. and i could almost hear you tell me to get real. i could almost hear you say romance is over rated. i could almost taste the ice cream you'd buy cause you know you spoiled my moment. i miss having you around. i miss getting notes everyday reminding me of something i'm supposed to remember. why did you have to fade?
it's daylight again. how am i supposed to spend the hours that gaps day and dusk without you? why can't i ever touch you? why cant i ever gaze into your eyes? are the steps i took since the moment i could walk were the steps that made me somehow closer to you? how am i supposed to know? what if i took a wrong turn along the way and was prevented from ever finding you? do i have the right to cry? do i have the right to cry even if i never got to meet you? do i have the right to love you and cry and feel as if ive lost you? is it fair? life is never fair. by now i realized as much.
i think im missing you again. is that ok? lies can have immense emotional toll. please dont lie to me. why am i asking you this? i know that to live is to lie to die another day. why am i asking you not to lie? maybe because it hurts me. i know... thinking that's reason enough. s=did you just call me again? accidentally punching in the wrong numbers... but really trying to call someone else? is that coincidence? everyone always told me never to live in magic. but you are magic. the fact that i own you in my head, and i love you with all my heart is miracle enough... we are magic. consequesnces never seeemed to go our way... why does everything always go wrong? i try. i try but it always seems that i'll never be strong enough to deal. cant you feel it? am i the only one here who feels it? am i alone again? **i cant finish my letter**

mused dettie at 7:05 PM [+]
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some frickin retarded losers on the c-train thought i was a dyke ^^ niiiiice~ more info posted on community blog with my cuzins. where? people who know knows.

mused dettie at 1:04 PM [+]
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...omg. life... is just nice.

mused dettie at 10:49 PM [+]
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK!!!! best wishes!! much loves! hehehe i love everyone!!! happy birthday much!
congrats to 'minor offense' for getting their first chance to record!
aaaaah~~~
hey, is that you?
i dont really know, uh,
i guess.. i just; i just missed you.
no, not really. but u bet i wished.
no, no worries. im doing great just good.
k, i hve to let you go, bye?
bye, i'll be seeing you.


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mused dettie at 8:18 PM [+]
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im lost for words.


You're Minoru!
You are extemely intelligent, introspective, and not very talkative.
You are haunted by your sister's death, and for awhile sought to replace her.
All too soon, you discover that people can not be replaced, no matter how much they look, sound, or act like the person you love.
Your replacement for your sister is a bittersweet joy, one that haunts you, and fills you with sadness, yet you would not lose such a precious reminder for anything.
In your spare time you like surfing the internet, and talking to other smart people like yourself online.

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mused dettie at 6:43 PM [+]
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dudes... eternal oddness. my love to everyone.

another day with a major head ache. seriously, i thought i was gonna die. i had 2 painkillers, in 2 periods, and shit... it still wouldnt go away. i dunno... i got so frustrated, i wanted to scream... i was pulling at my hair, and slamming my head on the piled bleachers... then on the lockers. i was frustrated. it was insane.

happy birthday to yoo
happy birthday to yoo
happy birthday dear nyawie~~~~
happy birthday to yoo!!!!!

mused dettie at 8:45 PM [+]
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Spend your lazy, endless, crazy days inside my head.
You're so selfish.
You're not the only one who thinks he's dead.
I'm paid to smile.
Now I'm on trial for what you think I said:

But I never said that everything would be okay...
And I never said that we would live to see another day.

Motivate me.
I wanna get myself out of this bed...
Captivate me.
I want good thoughts inside of my head.

If I fall down, would you come around and pick me right up off the ground?

Unrealistic and narcissitic.
You say I'm selfish and absurd.
You try change me, try to phase me.
You say I'm gonna learn.
I'm so blind, I'm out of time.
You're so unkind sometimes...
I never lied, I never lied. I never lied!

'Cause I never said that everything would be okay.
And I never said that we would live to see another day.

mused dettie at 12:04 AM [+]
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hmmm... some fuckin retard should die. ya 'dad' u should die. u useless lump of dirt in a bag of skin. die. i hate u. i hate u.

mused dettie at 6:20 PM [+]
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What kind of punk kid are you?
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mused dettie at 9:44 PM [+]
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gela moved again! bat di mapakali yung babaeng yun? hoi manatili ka nga sa isang tabi bata ka! jk. happy new home gelagoo!
dont worry, i changed ur link.

matt said he's not mad. sure ur not. its ok kid. it doesnt matter. i wish i remember miranda's number. i need to talk to someone... im falling again. i mean, depression again. ah fuck.
i just saw the ring. i had fun. my sister was so funny, she was freaking out, and this girl jumped, and this guy spazzed at me, and glared at him then gave him the finger. i think the best part was when katie[check] was dead snd they showed her face. that was greatness. oh, and well, i8 have to finish all my questions today, if not tomorrow. that is if i want to get english over with. math is gay. math is GAY!!!

i dont feel like posting at x. id post tomorrow. whoa... freaky hallow's eve bus ride's haunting me. i mean, i didnt know u can know so much about someone just talking to him. i swear. i think i know more about him than i do my sister. jk. ahahaha... lates.

mused dettie at 7:22 PM [+]
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You're pretty smart, maybe even smarter than average. If you work hard you could be a rocket scientist or a chemical engineer, but you might just relax a bit and be okay with whatever your best is, too.

mused dettie at 3:37 PM [+]
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